For some reason I’ve always had this irrational obsessive nature to my personality - pretty much the public persona that people associate with me. In some respects it’s not too far from the truth, but in reality I’ve created two personalities. It’s a necessity that helps me balance my life.
On the one hand, rugby and training bring out an intense focus and obsessive nature, whilst on the other hand I need to find balance by finding my own space to relax - mentally and physically.
I try to separate the two personas, but the two actually go hand in hand. They need each other. They can’t act independently and each is necessary for the other to function.
It's not always easy switching from one to the other, but it's a process that I've become used to, and you learn how to manage it within your own routine.
I'm looking forward getting back to trying all the sports I dabbled with as a youngster when I retire. To participate without the pressure is really appealing, but I'm sure the obsessive nature will always be lurking somewhere within, pushing and niggling away at me.